A DEVASTATED EDDIE Alvarez has reflected on how he “fucking blew it” at UFC 205 in a brutally honest post-fight statement.
On a record-breaking night in Madison Square Garden, Alvarez lost his lightweight title to Conor McGregor in a second-round TKO, allowing The Notorious to become the first simultaneous two-weight champion in the organisation’s history.
Alvarez was critical of his own performance while praising McGregor’s in the immediate aftermath of the defeat.
And on Tuesday, he released an emotional statement where he picked through his performance and still-raw feelings in detail.
“Congrats to Connor (sic) and his camp on an amazing accomplishment,” Alvarez wrote. “These guys continue to deliver, hats off to you fellas.
“As for my performance, the only thing I can honestly say was I fucking blew it… I did nothing I trained (for), I did the complete opposite of what we planned on a daily basis for 10 weeks.
“To sum up our plan in a sentence it was “Go left and mostly wrestle.” Instead I circled into his left hand and mostly boxed. Fighting the way I did was a for sure death sentence and the result was fitting.
“I say it all the time, there is really small margin for error at this level and I paid for my mistakes. I managed to make it to the biggest stage and audience in my long career and fucked it all up when I arrived. My heart sincerely hurts and when I dwell on it, I fill up with regret and anger.
“If there was a list of what not to do against an opponent of this nature I did them all on Saturday. I am disappointed in myself and this is not a reflection of my coaches, training partners, and the endless hours of training I commit to this sport.
“Every time I get into the cage I negotiate being vulnerable and possibly embarrassed against the opportunity to do something great and grow more. I always choose the latter regardless of the uncomfortability and anxiety it brings to me. I think this choice is the only reason I ever succeeded in the first place.
“I thought in my head at least making a lot of money would make me happy but I am having a lot of trouble enjoying myself regardless of the check that’s going to be written. I am very uneasy and discontent for the most part.
“I am lucky to have my wife and my child at a time like this to help me laugh and smile and let me know everything’s gonna be all right. They are my saving grace, without them I am a shell of a man.
“Besides the outcome I thoroughly enjoyed fight week and the lead up, it was a lot (of) fun.
“I have never defined myself off one win and I’ll never define myself off one loss. I simply had a bad night. I’ll have the opportunity again to have a good one and I’ll make the walk to see what I got everytime.
“Thanx for listening – EA”
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